Where it had grown translucent in places...

Me! Lots of me! With my hair a very interesting colour.




Sometimes I forget how big of a gap there is between my front teeth, though you can't really tell in these pictures. Anyways, the hair was supposed to be dark grey, but it turned out more silvery, goldy, whitey. The hair stylist person who did it is going to a convention this weekend, so she's going to ask around for advice and she said when she came back she would make it darker for me for free, so I may take her up on the offer. It is quite beautiful though.

Last night I went to a concert by Oliver Schroer. It was beautiful, heart-breaking, and full of grace. He plays violin, and he talked about his pilgrimage to Santiago, of which there were pictures showing on a screen in the background. It's hard to describe, but it's the sort of memory I will cherish. I thank Jaron very much for inviting me out.

I need to remember this feeling that I have had for the last day or two. The feeling like I have a thousand things about myself to discover, then a thousand things more. I don't feel like I really have time right now as school rages on (though perhaps I could make more time) but this summer I will make time to delve into it.

Love,
Eden

Hey! This is my life!

My friend Andrew asked me yesterday (at 2 in the morning when walking back from a friend's); "Why are you in such a rush to get out of here?"

Here being UVic.

I think this is a bit of misunderstanding to start with. I'm taking so many required classes that I'm always rushed, etc, so it seems like I'm in a hurry to get my degree done (when in reality it's a 5 year program).

But he's right, too. There's nothing stopping me from taking a year off, or taking an extra year to lighten my courseload and take a few classes I'm interested in.

That's right. There's nothing stopping me. This is my life!

It was (and is) a huge realization for me. It was definately a "what the hell am I doing?!" moment. I realized that I'm largly moving through my life in the path set out for me by my parents, and awesome as that path may be or not, it's not mine. Though I might run into opposition on the more patriarchal side of my family if I took hold of my own life more, it's something that should be considered and dealt with AFTER making my decisions for myself.

I know this sounds like a corny self confidence speech, but it's important. It's something that's been bubbling under the surface of my subconcious for a while now. Ever since my ex-person became an ex-person I've been slowly coming to the realizations that:

1) I run my life.
2) I rock.
3) I have unlimited potential to rock more.
4) I want to rock more.

So yes, I'm going to do that. Rock more that is. First, I have to get my homework done, because good marks aid in my plans (as well as the knowledge I'll get from doing my homework).

LOVE!
~Eden